Thursday, December 23, 2010

Hallmark Card to my Savior

When it's someone's birthday we often do things like buy them a nice card that says nice things about them and often we add our own personal touch or we give toasts at parties and share what we love about them. For many of our loved ones, there aren't enough words to describe the impact or wonderful characteristics about that person. Well, this season brings about the Birthday of someone very close and near and dear to my heart, in fact they own my heart. I'm talking about the birthday of my Jesus, my precious Savior. If I were to buy a Hallmark car for my Jesus, I would buy a blank one and inside I would I would say...

To My King,

Can't believe it's already been a year since your last birthday, the years seem to be flying by now! Wow, what do you say to the Lord you owe your life to? Lord, I am overwhelmingly grateful for what you've given me. You chose me and you knit me together, nothing about how you made me was an accident. You gave me a husband who loves me and cherishes me and loves you, too and 3 beautiful babies that are healthy and are already learning to love and acknowledge you. We have more family than we can count and friends that are more precious than any material thing this world has to offer. Today, Josh was saying one of the things he has probably taken for granted the most in the past is his health. This year more than ever I have never been more grateful for my health and the health of my family as so many friends are battling very difficult battles with their health. Lord, I don't know why, but you do and you are still on the throne and you have it under control and you have my friends and their families wrapped up in your arms of love and you are taking care of them. Thank you for that and please, Lord, continue to watch over them.

Thank you, Father, for continuing to restore my family. Thank you for blanketing us in a love once undiscovered, but now crashing over us like the ocean tide. It's one of the most beautiful earthly experiences I've ever had. It blows my mind that it's YOUR birthday and you've ALREADY saved us and yet you continue to bless me more than I could have ever imagined. You don't even have to. You've already done so much and yet you continue to just pour into my life and soul. You fill us physically, providing all the material things we need and then some to share with others. You fill me emotionally and hold me together when I'm weary, when I'm aching. You are my defender and I don't have to fight for justice. You give me the words to encourage others when they are down. Lord I pray you continue to use me and refine me.

God, when I've had a bad day and feel like the biggest let down on the planet, You come and whisper in my ear that I'm forgiven and you love me and you've broken the chains of bondage and set me free. I'm no longer a prisoner of my own sin. You help me push those feelings of inadequacy and insecurity far away so I can get back in the race to run with endurance. Thank you, Lord for your unending forgivenes and reassurance.

Jesus, you are my best friend and I long for the day I can see your face and throw myself at your feet and praise you all day and spend your birthdays face to face. Can we still have Christmas in heaven? Every Day? Ahhh, that would be amazing! Thank you for being the Ultimate gift and, Lord, my prayer is for those who have forgotten or do not know you will discover You this Christmas, your love and forgiveness and the blessings you have in store for those that love you. Thank you for what you have already done this season and what you will continue to do in the kingdom.

I can't get enough of the 'winter snow' song because of the lyrics. It captures the essence of your humility and grace. You came so humbly to the earth and you never push your way into anyone's life. You are my King and you came just to show me how much you love ME and so that I can spend forever in paradise with you. Your presence in my life is so real and the only thing that I can ever be sure of. You are enough for me, Jesus. Abba, I love you and I pray I honor you on your birthday and everyday. And forgive me for the times I fall short, Father. You are the most precious gift I have, Jesus. And I pray, Lord, you give me boldness, humility and your light shines bright through me so I can share you with others so that they may come to know you, too. To really know you; closely & intimately. I pray we only get closer this year, God. I need more and more of you. There can never be enough. I wanna be more like you in every way. I want my shortcomings to be less and less frequent. I am ever so grateful that you are so patient with my Peter-like ways and mouth. I pray that you take every part of my being and use it to glorify your holy name.

Thank you so much, Jesus. I hope you are glorified on your birthday and everyday this year by your servants here on earth anxiously awaiting your return. I pray as we go into this new year Lord that I have an ear to hear and a willing heart to do whatever it is that will draw me nearer to you, Daddy.

Your Daughter,
Priscilla

Monday, December 6, 2010

It's been awhile...

Taking leaps of faith has really paid off and so has making my prayer life/relationship with my savior a priority. God is blessing us beyond our wildest dreams since Josh quit his job just a few short weeks ago. We have a great support system of amazing friends and family. I'm so excited to see what the future holds!

We celebrated Madison's 5th birthday on Saturday. It was a blast! Pictures to come on FB. I cant believe my baby will be 5 on Thursday, but I LOVE that I'm only 25 with a 5 year old. LOL. We had a bouncer, some Chick-Fil-a, of course, and most importantly lots of friends and family. We truly felt blessed by those who came to celebrate our little Madison. Thank you so much!

God is in a work of restoring our family and it has been beyond awesome, I cant even describe it. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my seesters and what God is doing. We just did family pics yesterday and it was hilarious. The rain, the kids, Linda looking gangster with her hood on....HILARIOUS. Pictures also coming on FB.

Yesterday 12/5/10, Pastor Jeff's message about being joyful was so refreshing. I think "joy" is one of my favorite subjects. I definitely recommend listening to it, especially if you are going through hard times.

ok, I'm semi caught-up...maybe more blogging later...what do you want to hear more of?

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Blessed be your name, Jesus!

ugh, my poor blog has been so neglected! Oh well, it's been BUSY! Our life is not even the same as it was a week ago, I'm not even sure that this blog has enough space to write down all the things going on and the prayers being answered. Over the past month or so God has laid some serios things on my heart to pray for and I have and I see him working and answering those prayers in mighty ways.

As I'm sure many of you know, we have been wanting to take our window business full time for awhile. As of lately we have been praying about it and talking to Pastor Charlie and getting prayer to be in Lord's will in doing so. This would be a HUGE step of faith. I had a lot of fears and really no reason for them. God is God and he is in control. Josh spoke with Pastor Charlie on Thursday at lunch and then after Josh left I starting dusting shelves and rearranging books. I took a stack of books and put them on the shelf and made sure they were tidy and pretty and I noticed before I placed them, one of the books was 'The Prayer of Jabez.' I knew the book had something to do with a small prayer asking for blessign and I thought to myself "I should read that", but I just went on with what I was doing. I placed the books, grabbed a dusty silk plant and took it outside to dust. When I came back in 30 seconds later, I went back to organizing the shelf and where I had stuck the group of books previously, The Prayer of Jabez was pulled ALL the way out. Whoa. Weird. I JUST PUT THOSE BOOKS THERE AND THEY WERE PERFECT!! I sat and read it and the prayer is this:

"Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, “Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain.” And God granted his request."
That pretty much sums up our cry to the Lord. So we continued to pray. On Friday, we had Bible Study (keep in mind that before thursday, there were many other things pointing to this being a good decsion for us, as well, but the direction became much more clear as of last week) Louise's message was so good, as always, but one thing I heard was her say, "As Christians we are not meant lived these contained, secure lives." I iprayed with Rachelle and then went home to talk to Josh more and we prayed some more and then he spoke to Pastor Charlie for more prayer and wisdom and then he put in his one week notice. PUT IN HIS ONE WEEK NOTICE!!! EEEEEKKKKK!!!! And the fear disipated. It's gone, I'm stoked and God had just laid blessing after blessing on us, IMMEDIATELY after we took that step of faith. We got a ne customer who was amazing and shared our info with many friends and we've already received phone calls from her referrals. A 4th Chick-Fil-A CALLED US!! CALLED US!! And boom! 4th Chick-fil-a! We are doing another significant quote on large commercial area tonight. Sunday we sold 'Bondage' (the ranger). Thak you, LORD! Josh's female boss who is known for tearing people down called him into her office yesterday and wanted to know why he was leaving. Of course Josh was braced for the worst when he walked in, but she did nothing but praise him for the work he's done there and asked him to quote the building and their personal residence!! WHAT?!?! WHAT?!?! PEOPLE, this is nothing short of an act of God. None of this. This is all God. God could slam all these doors shut as fast as he opened them. Josh and I are striving to be obedient and be good stewards of what he gives us. It's all his anyway. None of it's ours. None of it. He gives and he takes away and I will say "Blessed be your name". God is on the throne in good times and in bad. And we have had some valleys.
GET READY TO SWITCH GEARS.
Speaking of valleys, we have some dear friends in the valley right now. We have had 2 people close to our family be diagnosed with cancer in the last week. and another who relapsed about 3 months ago. And I want you to know friends, that you are on my heart 24/7. We are grieving with you and praying for you and your loved ones. The Bible says, "And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them." Romans 8:28. It's hard to conceive how any of this can work out to be good, but God is faithful, he is on the throne, he is in control and his plan will prevail. Death was conquered at the cross and we have the hope of eternity. No cancer is going to take away eternity with our Savior. He loves you and he has his arms around you and he is weeping with you because this was neverpart of the original plan. He will NEVER let you go. I have never been more heavenly minded in my LIFE and pain and sufferin falls on the believing and the unbelieving, Paul says we have can have an "inexpressible and glorious joy" in our time of suffering. Rejoice bc "I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns." Hang in there, friends, brothers and sisters in Christ. GOD HAS A PLAN. He is faithful. I love you and so many others love you. We are hitting our knees and praying for you!

Monday, November 8, 2010

Bondage to Freedom and back again

The word 'disappointed' hardly seems to capture how bummed I am, but I guess it will do. Bought a truck this weekend only to find out it needs quite a bit of work put into it. I was fine with spending some money, but I'm afraid it will just be the beginning of a money pit. We listed it back on Craigslist to hopefully be able to recover what we paid for it.

I feel almost petty that this is my biggest personal issue right now, but Josh and I have worked so hard to save money. I'm pretty sure the Lord is trying to teach me something in all of this mess. I was so excited to not have to share one car anymore. And now that just went 'kapoof!' for now. We'll see what happens...

Onto more important things. So many people need prayer right now. My heart is so grieved for families dealing with illness or death. We talk about suffering and pain and death all the time in church growing up, you know it's a part of life and it's gonna happen and you know it's gonna hurt and be sad, but when it strikes it hurts like you never even knew it existed. We wait and hope for blessings and for God to come through for us in prayer on the things we ask for, but then when suffering hits it's like being hit with a bus. And then the bus backs up and pounds you again.

Today I thought about when Lazarus was raised from the dead, but before Jesus raised him from the dead, the Bible says he wept. Why on earth would Jesus weep?? He knew he was bringing him back. I love that he does weep because that showed one of the most beautiful qualities about Christ which is empathy. He is weeping with us and hurting with us. You know why? It wasn't supposed to be this way. Nope, nope. BUT it is. we're rotten, awful sinners and that's just the way it is, but PRAISE THE LORD that we WERE created for something more and that Jesus died for us so one day we will be in heaven and NO. MORE. TEARS. PAIN. HURT. SUFFERING. No more shooting police officers and dying soldiers. No more cancer. No more divorce. No more surprise freak deaths. No more financial woes. No more child abductions, rape and abuse. I can't wait. I can't wait to be held safe and sound in the arms of My Savior. I am so grateful for what he did on the cross so we can have the promise of heaven with Him.

If you don't have that hope and haven't asked Christ to come into your life, Say a prayer asking him to. Confess your sins and ask him to come live in your heart and to transform your life. BEST decision you will EVER make!!

Monday, October 25, 2010

Go Me!

I was going back and forth between 2 potential blogs. Potential blog #1: (wait for it)"Why do people who are not Christians quote Jesus?" I find it very interesting. You certainly don't see me going around quoting Joesph Smith (no offense, mormon friends). But people like to quote Jesus to tell us how us Christians how we have our Christianity all wrong. Hello?? You don't believe in Jesus, you don't believe in his word and you certainly don't live by it and yet you attempt to use to back up your non-biblical beliefs? Fascinating. haha, ok, I'll stop because Potential blog #2 is Getting Organized and that's the one I settled on (pause for everyone's collective sigh of relief)

I'm REALLY sad I did not take a picture of my desk pre-organization, albeit embarrassing. I was tempted to mess it all back up again, add about 30 lbs of useless papers from the last 2 years to give you an idea cuz that would totally be productive, right? Nah, it wasn't that bad, but it was definitely unkempt. I still hadn't found a home for things since we moved. When I feel overwhelmed and disorganized it's impossible hard for me to function. So today we got it alll straightened out.


My favorite part about getting organized is stuff that I utilize to get organized. First of all the 2 baskets that you see, those were clearanced at Target for $6.48. I don't know if you can really tell by the pics, but these are great sized baskets. I was more than thrilled to get them at such an awesome price. I used one basket for Josh's stuff (quotes, business cards, etc.) and the other to hold some of my desk necessities. They fit Perfectly in the slots in the desk FTW. See the little tin in the 3rd picture? That is a tin from Brighton, I used it to store cords. The rubbermaid storage container is holding some our Disney pins that were floating in the drawer waiting to stab the next unsuspecting fingers. and I just used a ziploc to hold batteries, where as before they were floating in the bottom of a big plastic storage container that was holding other garbage. That storage container went on to do great work and its only job now is to hold our video camera, charger and extra discs. Work with what you got, ladies! Now as far as papers go, I pretty much have a spot for all of them, but they weren't getting placed there. {refer to first picture for a better idea,but its still hard to see} The big black and white filing box is our business filings, the black folder is our house hunt filings and the purple one is for personal filings. You can't see them but there are a couple of loose folders which hold papers which are items that need immediate attention such as a bill, a receipt to be filed, etc. So everyyyy piece of paper has a place. HALLELUJAH!






The drawer before was being taken over by pins, stationary and cords. UGH. Most useless drawer on the planet! So I emptied it, stuck a basket in there. I filled the basket with the stationary, checkbooks and a pencil box. There are few other miscellaneous things, but they allll have a place and thats alllll that matters. Those stickers are stamps that got put on an envelopes that never ended up getting mailed out so I peeled them back off the envelopes and kept them. Heck no, techno, am I throwing away .44¢ x 4. That's just wasteful. They'll get used. Eventually. div>


I was inspired by someone else so I hope I've passed along the inspiration. Christmas is EXACTLY 2 months away. Make room for all the new goodies!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Do you have $40? Join in Operation Christmas Child

Because if you do, you could make a child's Christmas on of the Best Ever!!



Operation Christmas Child. Basically, you fill up a shoebox (your own or one you can pick up from a church or other institutions)




When you pick up a box, they give you instructions on what to pack and what not to pack. You get to choose the gender and age group of the child you would like your box to go to.

We chose a girl age 2-4. I chose this because Haylie and Madison are 3 and 4 and they got to pick out a majority of what went into the box. They really got into it which really made my heart smile. They totally understand that this is going to be some little girl's Christmas gift who isn't as fortunate as they are and they can be a small blessing to her. The joy of giving is one that can hardly be matched and I hope my kids will all grow up to feel the same. I have always wanted to do the box, but we've never followed through on it, sadly. I think next year we'll have all 3 kids do a box for a child of their same gender and age.

One year I remember my dad packing a box and he spent about $80 and that amount always intimidated me from attempting to pack one. That was before the $1 section at Target. Hello, Bargains! We got mittens, socks, a notepad, markers, stickers, coloring book, etc. And no I don't feel guilty shopping in the deal section because I buy my own little girls stuff from that section ALL the time. Then they have a section of mini toys (aka PERFECT shoebox size) for $2.49. Again, stuff my kids ALWAYS want i.e. harmonica, oversized bouncy ball that lights up, paddle ball, etc. Then we headed to the hygeine section, more specifically, the trial size section and picked up all of our hygeine items that were all good quality for an awesome price. I also grabbed a little dress off the clearance rack.


Altogether, I spent less than $40 and my box is packed to the gills!




After you get it all packed you can throw in a letter and/or a pic of your family. If you put your address they may write back. They also ask that you throw in $7 for shipping if you can.

This is such a great opportunity for your whole family to get in on. For $40 you can turn a child's world upside down and you are also opening the door for the gospel to be shared with them!

FOR MORE INFORMATION GO TO THE WEBSITE

Worship: Sing and Give, at the same time if you want...why not?

I've had a blog brewing the past few days and now that I have quiet time and chance to sit down and write I'm hitting a wall. Oh well, here we go...

Chapter 6 of 'Crazy Love' was all about falling in love with our Savior. It's so easy to see God as this enormous being with just a bunch of rules and regulations, but even the rules and regulations are made out of his abundant love for us and setup to protect us from some obvious consequences and even some that are unforeseeable. I love the way Jason Gray describes how an ideal relationship with the Lord can be, "More like falling in love than something to believe in, more like losing my heart than giving my allegiance." Are you in Love with Jesus? Have you lost your heart? One of the best parts of Chapter 6 was that even the days we aren't feelin' it, we can pray and ask God to put that passion and love in our hearts. How awesome is that? What if you told your spouse, "Eh, I'm not really feeling very in love with you today." Most spouses are not gonna say, "Oh, honey, thats alright, how can I help you be more in love with me today?" Haha. I know I would be uber-offended. LOL But not God. His love is that unconditional and unfailing he is even there to help us love him more. Matthew 7:7 says "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."

I love Music, especially worship music. It ministers to my heart so much. That is definitely a way I go to the Lord and spend time with him. I meditate on the words of the songs. So many songs are on my favorite list, but different songs minister to me at different times. Right now I am focused on just falling in love with the Lord and building that intimate relationship with him. Phil Wickham's song "Divine Romance" is the most beautiful love song. You can listen to it on my play list.

The fullness of Your grace is here with me
The richness of Your beauty’s all I see
The brightness of Your glory has arrived
In Your presence God, I’m completely satisfied
For You I sing I dance
Rejoice in this divine romance
Lift my heart and my hands
To show my love, to show my love
A deep deep flood, an Ocean flows from You
Of deep deep love, yeah it’s filling up the room
Your innocent blood, has washed my guilty life


The church is the bride of Christ and one day when it's all said and done and our "wedding day" comes, I hope this is the song of our "first dance" together. What a beautiful celebration, it will be. Think of all the amazing weddings money has bought on earth. Imagine what the Creator of all things has planned for us! The colors, the Angels, the saved souls, the WORSHIP! And most importantly, our Father on the throne. It's gonna be out of control! Can't wait!

God has been so incredibly faithful in recent weeks. In the Bible, God tells believers to test Him in one area and that is the area of giving. Malachi 3:10 says, '"Bring all the tithes into the storehouse so there will be enough food in my Temple. If you do," says the LORD of Heaven's Armies, "I will open the windows of heaven for you. I will pour out a blessing so great you won't have enough room to take it in! Try it! Put me to the test!"' Have you tried it? Have you taken that leap of faith in your walk? I can tell you God has blessed us with so much and it's not always monetary. Sometimes it's an answer to prayer, sometimes it's in restoration of relationships. To be honest, we should just do it cheerfully because everything belongs to the Lord anyway and he commands us to do it, but how awesome is it that he will bless us for it?! I know for many, including us for a long time, it seems impossible to give 10% and you won't be able to afford it. Friends, you CAN'T afford not to. It's a system that makes no earthly sense, but has priceless heavenly rewards. I have seen so many friends struggling financially and we have BEEN there, bought the t-shirt. Had our gas turned off, maxed out every single credit card we had, had a night we didn't know how Josh was going to make it home at 3 am bc we didnt have a penny to our names. We were 92k in debt. Almost $100,000 in debt at 21 and 24 years old! When we decided to get on the Dave Ramsey program we decided we would start to give to God, too. How? We was BROKE with a capital 'B'. So the first month of our new plan, we gave $25 a week and we were freaked out about that. The next month we bumped it to $50 a week and eventually worked our way up to 10%. In 2 1/2 years we cut our debt in half and saved a small chunk of money. God opened doors right and left for us and we've even been able to start a small business in one of the worst economic times our country has seen. God also brought much peace to our marriage and restored our relationship where it had been damaged and brought us closer than we had ever been. I earned a trip to Hawaii during this time, also, so Josh and I got the honeymoon that we never had, ALL expenses paid. I give ALL the credit to the Lord. Some days it still doesn't make sense to me, but the Lord's plans are the Lord's plans and we're along for the ride. Trust me, your flesh can work as hard as it wants, if it's not in the Lord's plans it aint gonna happen and even if God does allow you to wander down your own path it's nothing compared to the plans God has for your life when you desire to be in his will.

Funny, when I started this blog I had no intentions of sharing our little journey. Most people who know us, know it, but I just felt led to share it. I hope it encourages at least one person who hasn't taken that step of faith or is maybe struggling with their finances. God WANTS to bless you. Do you have kids? It gives me ridiculous amounts of joy to take my little girls shopping. They love pretty clothes and new accessories for their kitchen or a new game or new book. They LOVE it. They definitely get the shopping bug from me. Shocker, I know. God is the same way, he LOVES to bless us. Step out in faith, friends. You won't regret it. You CANNOT outgive God.

oh and BTW Giving is a form of worshipping the Lord. So this blog totally makes complete sense and flows! Have a phenom weekend, Lovies!